Last October was my cell servant's wedding. I am happy to be back in time for it!
I remember that in the cell, I've always heard Ate Yvette say that her longing is a single life. It was radical for me because I've always known women whose longing is for marriage and here is a woman who wants to be single forever. But she confessed that her calling is to marriage. She has to obey the Lord. God has changed her heart. As she confessed now, she is so happy to be married!
I guess that must always be the attitude - where God leads us, we must obey! He knows what's best and He is worthy of our trust!
At one point in my life, I began praying to have the same heart as that of my cell servant - To desire a single life is to desire a focused Christian life. I will not have to concern myself with taking care of my family and home. I can also manage my time and resources without asking permission from my husband or without considering the schedule at home with the kids. I can be in a ministry wherever and whenever but to a married woman, she has homemaking and submission to her husband as her major ministry which she must do joyfully as serving to the Lord.
One of my favorite song says,
Not what I wish to be
Nor where I wish to go
For who am I that I should choose my way...
The Lord shall choose for me.
Nor where I wish to go
For who am I that I should choose my way...
The Lord shall choose for me.
And then last November - another sister in the cell got married.
With all these weddings, what will it make me feel or consider? That I should also get married? Haha - No .. no ... no.
I honestly don't know what the Lord's will is. My cell servant told us that we should pray about it - to inquire of the Lord about it. I did but God doesn't answer. Maybe, it is not yet time for me to know. My concern though should be to cultivate my heart before the Lord - to cultivate the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight (I Peter 3:4). With this goal, I have a lot of working to do, all by the grace of God.
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